Saturday, June 2, 2012

Viva Cristo Rey.


Between heaven and earth
Between light and dark
Between faith and sin
Lies only my heart
Lies God and only my heart

A group of students and I went to see For Greater Glory (also known as Cristiada) yesterday night.  Based on true events, the film revolves around the Cristero War in Mexico during the 1920s, when the Mexican government sought to suppress the peoples' right to practice freely their religion.  In particular, the laws passed by the then-Mexican president, Plutarco Calles, sought to suppress the influence of the Roman Catholic Church on the Mexican people.  In response to the stringent anti-Catholic laws enforced on the Mexican people, a group of rag-tag freedom fighters, self-proclaimed Cristeros, banded together to fight the oppressive federales of the Mexican army, sent by the government to quell them.  

While not reviewed positively by many media critics throughout the United States, this movie, for me, and I believe for my students as well, was particularly moving.  There are countless - countless - heart-wrenching scenes, scenes so painful to watch that all of us as a group grimaced on more than one occasion.  A particularly agonizing scene involving a young boy, who we later learned was Blessed Jose Sanchez del Rio, had the student next to me in a shower of tears.  Here we are, a group of young people striving after authentic holiness - witnessing in this film dozens of priests, laypeople, even children of 1920s Mexico, martyred for their faith in gruesome ways because they refused to deny their faith in Jesus Christ.   And while we weren't able to discuss much of the movie after the credits rolled (due mostly to the fact that it was 12:30 in the morning and we were exhausted), the prevailing sentiments that swirled in my head as I drove home from the theater were: If faced with similar circumstances, would I be ready to die for Jesus Christ?  

In my human weakness, every ounce of my being says, right now, "NO!  I am not brave enough!"  Yet, as seems to be the case with the probably thousands (maybe even hundreds of thousands) of martyrs throughout the history of the Church, I believe deeply in my heart of hearts that God gives a special grace to those He has chosen to be martyrs for His Church.  In the film, during what I thought was the most moving scene of martyrdom, a young boy is asked to renounce his faith in Jesus Christ in order to have his life spared.  He is given one last chance to deny his faith, as he stands before the grave in which he is to be buried following his execution.  "Just say it," his padrino (godfather, the mayor of the town, present at the site of the execution, along with the young boy's parents) says to him.  "I can't," says the boy, covered in blood from torture, yet smiling through his suffering.  "I love you.  Viva Cristo Rey."  With that, a soldier plunges his bayonet into the boy's chest, and he begins to die.  As he writhes on the ground, in visible agony, he traces a cross into the sand.  "I'm going home," he whispers, before a soldier delivers a coup de grace and finally kills him.  As I watched this scene with tears in my eyes, I could not help but think of the heroic courage given to this child by our good God, to withstand his torture, walk to his grave, affirm his faith in Christ yet again, and forgive his executioners.  

While the storyline of the young boy was indeed moving, perhaps the most moving plot point for me was the faith journey of the leader of the Cristeros, el General Enrique Gorostieta.  Throughout the film, the viewer knows that the General does not believe in God.  He sees the struggle for religious freedom as a noble one, fights with the Cristeros with passion and conviction, and believes President Calles to be a barbarian, yet he lacks faith in God.  In a particularly turbulent time of the war, he asks one of his soldiers, who is also a Catholic priest, the time-honored question, "Why would God permit such atrocity in this world?"  The priest responds with the age-old answer, that God is able to bring about incredible triumph in the face of horrific evil, his Holy Cross being the prime example.  Finally, near the end of the film, as the viewer has seen the breadth of the General's interior struggles of doubt, he asks the priest-soldier to hear his confession, moments before his death in a gunfight.  This stirred in my heart so deeply - after years of doubt, the General returned to God.  What a testament to the goodness and mercy of God, but also what a testament to the humility required by the General.  It truly warmed my heart and gave me tremendous hope for those currently struggling with doubt to see that after years of being away from God and away from the sacraments, the General was able to make a return to God and die in the state of grace.  God is good, He is very, very good.  

So, in the midst of these incoherent ramblings, the bottom line is: see the film.  
Be challenged by the story of these heroic Cristeros.  
Believe deeply in your convictions.  
Pray intensely.
Love Christ deeply. 
Live your life as if ready to die for Him at any moment (however unlikely a martyr's death may be).  

Viva Cristo Rey!  Que viva!

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Saturday, May 12, 2012

time

"Let us take a good, honest look at our own lives.  How is it that sometimes we just can't find those few minutes it would take to finish lovingly the work we have to do, which is the very means of our sanctification?  Why do we neglect our family duties?  Why that tendency to rush through our prayers, or through the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass?  How are we so lacking in calm and serenity when it comes to fulfilling the duties of our state, and yet so unhurried as we indulge in our own whims?  You might say these are trifling matters.  You're right, they are, but these trifles are the oil, the fuel we need to keep our flame alive and our light shining." 
~ St. Josemaria Escriva, Friends of God 

Let's just put it this way: this knocked me off my feet in prayer this morning.  Needless to say, this will be my meditation for a good, long, while!   

Monday, April 9, 2012

another long hiatus

The title of the post seems to be the norm around these parts, doesn't it?

A quick snapshot of life right now, for old time's sake:

1. My heart is immensely full of Easter joy.  Alleluia!  Resurrexit, sicut dixit!  This may have been my most fruitful Lent to date.  The Diet Cokes from which I fasted for these forty days have never tasted better!  In this forty-day sojourn in the desert there were little, unique moments when I felt especially that my good God was tugging fervently at my heart.  Triduum especially was a grace-filled time, each liturgy more beautiful than the last (if that's even possible, of course!).  I meet with my spiritual director tomorrow for the first time in three weeks, and I know there will be much to discuss!

2. Have you read the new English translation of the great Easter Proclamation, the Exultet?  I most certainly recommend doing so.  You can find text of the new translation at this link.  It is about halfway down the page, and begins with "Exult, let them exult."  It is a beautiful way to meditate more deeply on the profound realities of our Lord's Resurrection.  Three cheers (and thanks be to God) for the New Translation of the Roman Missal, implemented just over four months ago!

3. Still flirting with the idea of going to Rome in June.  At this point, it seems less likely than before, due much in part to the suddenly very real possibility of diving into the house-hunting foray and the need to save every - and I mean every - penny.  My heart aches to be in Rome to share in the joy of our dear friend to be ordained to God's holy priesthood, and if God wants us to be there, we've entrusted the logistics to St. Joseph.  If not, we're definitely planning a trip to wherever his first Mass is stateside!

4. My work, while often challenging, is really, really wonderful.  I love my students and love the conversations that I have with them day in and day out.  To encourage and affirm them in their journey to know Christ deeply is humbling and exhilarating.  Things have begun to wind down significantly - after all, we're only about five weeks from the end of the academic year - but this is a time to invest individually in students and support them in any way possible as the year concludes.  I look forward to what the remainder of the academic year brings, and what God has in store for my students next year!

5.  Making a wedding album.  This is something that is completely overdue - we've been married two and a half years already!  I found a copy of our wedding program tonight as I was cleaning our bedroom and as I reminisced, made a resolution to create a wedding photo book online.  I know it will be a long (and perhaps occasionally arduous) process - just started uploading the first of hundreds of digital negatives to a photo hosting website, and the upload process is already taking much longer than I wanted it to!

I think that's about all there is happening in life right now.  Life is often ordinary, sometimes grueling, but mostly remarkable.  There is something completely remarkable about the gift of each day - of each simple, monotonous, ordinary day.  So grateful to my good God for the gift of so many ordinary days, full of extraordinary moments of grace.  Thank you, Jesus, thank you!

O, death, where is your sting? 
O, hell, where is your victory? 
O, Church, come stand in the light
The glory of God has defeated the night


O, Church, come stand in the light
Our God is not dead, He's alive
He's alive!  
- Matt Maher